time and money poooooor.

I'm so....... Z O N K E D O U T.
BLAHHH. Everything's really taking it's toll on me!
SCHOOL. WORK. BLAH.
I have no time even for myself now ):
I need money and time.
So much for being money AND time poor.
Every 4 days of my week is burnt up for work.
Every 4 days of my week is burnt up for lessons.
And every 2 days of my week is burnt up for projects.
Seemed like I'm left with ONE day?
NOPE. It's rushing late assignments at home and to PIG AWAY.
I DEPRIVE SLEEP SRLY.
And now, it's time for work again! GREAT.
Stupid TOTO, you changed shift just so you can go out with that bloody gf of yours!?
MY MORNING SHIFTTTTT )):
I ABHORE YOU. ):

BYE.
I hate to look back these days.......

Rantings!

Handphone issue chapter closed! BAM! :D Just got my favvvvvvv phone, for now. LOL. Please don't cock up again. BE GOODDDD :) I love you my slim slim w890i :D Kinda got sick of brown alr. And the brown hue looks kinda like maroon. Dangs. LOL. So.. I got the colour of stainless steel :D Happy kiddddo :D LOL I'll be waiting to get back to work man. $140 more to go to PRADA. :( I'm going to get a new watch after I get my PRADA. LOL. Materialism. What in the world. KAYS. Enough about braggin' over material.

Sorry Bandits, can't be able to join you guys for Pool @ Parkway :( Kinda sad though. Made a promise with the 2 darling babes to go urm, service. LOL Yupp. So later at 5.30 will be at Expo with babyy, xinxin and boobies :)

I got so frustrated last night. 'Cause of the many things running through my head. It seriously sucks to be cooped up at home during the longggg weekends. I have had my self-proclaim holiday since Wednesday afternoon. And up till TODAY, I HAVE GOT NTH BETTER TO DO. I've been marathon-ing this DVD with 28 horror flicks that Ethan left for me for the past 24 hours. LOL. Damnnnnn sick and tired up there. Want to go work, I'm off scheduled. Want to go out and play, can't just stay out all night. Fucked up. I PRAY I CAN GO TABOO TONIGHT. :( Sigh. Damn it.

I'm jealous, everyone's having a blast this weekend. And I'm not :( Sigh. And I'm bloody freaking planless on Sunday (oh wait, think I DO have plans.), when 5 different people wants to ask me out today. DAMN. HAHAHA. Everyone loves Saturday. Monday come some VESAK DAY. :DD


This is my 4th on the right btw ;)

CHEERIOS, let me have a good saturday night! :)




There's no one, like you.

Can't sleep, again.

Jolene had been a really good girl today. She met her darlings for lunch way before lecture. O.o Lecture did I just went lecture?! Lol, yup I went today lar. At 2PM. Suppose to go to work today buttttttt, got a last minute sms from lady boss on my way to school to say today isn't my scheduled working day, and so.. It was pushed back to tomorrow. But too bad, it's sisters' day out yo. :D So I can't work! Neither can I attend programmers' outing to eat claypot rice as I promised both retards to go suffer together. HAHA. But then again.... I can't wait to get my booze, or soya bean drink and you tiao!!! HOMG. UBER DUPER CRAVING AT THIS UNEARTHLY HOUR :(

Anyway on a random note, there were many eye-rolling situations that happened this afternoon. The bloody crowded isle of business school, pack with us business students.... I can HARDLY squeeze my way through, then the bloody long queues for FOOD... And somethings which kinda upset me lar.. I know. I changed. Stop telling me so, 'cause I myself am not blinded by my own doings. I'm not stupid enough to do what you call stupid things, I know what I'm doing, and sometimes I don't need constant reminders to tell me what to do, and to tell me who I really am. Sometimes when we try too hard, we just crumble more. I don't blame anyone else for what has happened, I don't want to point fingers, NO. It just happened so that things turn out to be like this. None of us are pleased deep down, but is there really anything else we can do. I was long worn out by this issue.... Just that I kept silent all this while. I seriously don't have that initiative to open up. You know what I think is the best now, silence means EVERYTHING. Peace. I like it, and it doesn't matter if things get bottled up in me, that's my nature. But I do appreciate for caring, all for the good of my well-being. But to think how harsh words can sometimes be, I seriously don't need it.

After lecture, met up with the programmers for dinner and discussion. And back to school at 7 for mass debrief. Everything was such a bore, cycles and cycles of pointless nothings which was mentioned so. End up, I felt that, I FELT THAT, to me I had wasted my 3-4hours in school. And in conclusion with everything, I concluded that last night's mass debrief was officially pointless, meaningless, desultory. Period.

TA MA DE FUAD. I will never EVER forgive YOU. Thanks for picking your flatten pet cockroach chasing me down the isles of business school to the ladies'. Seriously THANK YOU. Disgusting.

Ok, I just made came out with a stupid idea. Stupid Jolene. :/ Oh well, hope all goes well later.
If you are able to pay me back my favour. I APPRECIATE IT. GOOD NIGHT :/
Stay with me?

Irony.

You can be such a prick.

I'm still awake at this hour, and I just can't sleep even if I go to bed now. Had too much late nights. Boo. Wanted to go Dempsey today, but my butt decided to stick around at home. Well, I wasted the time sitting infront of the big ass black box, sobbing over emotional k-dramas. What a sponger.

(after 10minutes of staring.)

Zzz. I can't sleep still. Sigh.

My baby brother Sister came to chat with me tonight. He just made me realise how much changes there are now. I hope you're fine! We'll meet up soon, promise? Cannot neglect anymore friends who still care for me. Yeah, we watched ourselves and the people around us grow up huh. I wonder... How buff have you become, huh? Lol.

Anyway, I feel much better. The time now is 3.40AM. I have so many more things to do when I wake up. There's project meeting at 12, trading assessment starts today too. Hope I won't keesiao at 1st Avenue later. Must stay vigilant and agile for at least 4 hours. Hmm, 6. I have Bizguides briefing and band rehersal. Where should I go? Drag. Always getting myself into so much trouble. Hmm, no I should say, trouble ALWAYS finds me. Sigh. Damn Monday.

I think I shall try to sleep now, even if I can't. Got to get my ass outta bed at 10AM later.

Oh, painters are coming over to re-paint the walls. Mmmm. New colours all over the walls and ceiling. Can't wait to see the home getting all brighten up. Goodbye warm walls.

My gray walls. Hello. Hello. (:

Ciao.

I will be this happy today.

Damn the irony.
The songs I written were for you, now you're here to compose them for me.
Damn the irony.
I'm wondering, are we feigning it?

A champagne supernova.

It's the last day of the year 2007 already, never had it coming thatttttt FAST. So have you guys made up your resolutions for 2008? I think I have none 'cause they just seem to fail me every year. Without a doubt, I get poorer, fatter and stupider each year. Get what I mean? There's no such word as stupider. It's MORE stupid. LOL. Random.

Well, on the last day of 2007.... There is school! WOW! TP ROCKS MAN. ZZZ. So I'm going to school later for a couple of lessons and continue tidying up the store. It's almost finished! :D All what's left is packing, tagging, and syncing! I still need a lot more of wine bottles for vm. Do donate/lend this poor bugger here k? Drop me a message. (: If you're wondering why I need it, this is the reason:

Abit chapalang eh? But the overall effect is great!
Yup, the team's selling bikinis and FBT bottoms. Operation starts on 4 Jan, dooooo drop by. (: See, we still need bottles. There is an empty shelving. Hmmms. Whatever.. just remembered that I HAVE to go to school. You know why? I left my purse containing my Ezlink, ATM card and IBanking keychain at 1st Ave. ZZZ. Stupid. Just plainnnn stupid. I felt worthless, lost and moneyless for the weekends. LOL. Anyway, I just mass reset my damn freaking hp. SIGH. Hundreds of messages just gone like that. All my greetings and every memory. GROSS ): That's the most upsetting thing to ever happen, to get your messages and everything cleared. Sighhhh. This phone is giving me so much problems that I feel like flinging it out of the window. Well, if you provoke me, I might just fling it right into your face. I'm sure it won't hurt 'cause it only weighs 89grams. The fit would. So... (: Oh, anyway I hope to have a blast on New Year's Eve. Let's make it happen (: THERE. I fed my blog. LOL. Ciao.

Don't speak.

Sick.

The flu caught me once again. The pain of having to go through a sore throat and runny nose. ): Immunity keeps getting worse every year. Sigh, I've become such a weakling. I exercise and pop my vitamins everyday, I still end up having flu every 3 months. Or anytime someone sneezes beside me. Life sucks. ): I'm sickly.... BOOHOO. Lol. Whatever lar, huh?

Man the weather sucks. It's never consistent for once, maybe that explains why I caught a flu. One moment I'm burning, another moment I'm like a frozen popsicle. Yesterday I went through a chilly weather without my jacket. Forgetting the sweater was indeed the stupidest decision ever. ): Jolebeans is sick sick sick. URRRG. ):

2 more papers to go and the busy weeks up ahead! Christmas shopping everyone : D Promised to get su-hunny a pressie this time. Belated beyond belated. Tsk. I realised I haven't been giving a lot this year, maybe it's my time to spread some love and joy. This the season to be jolly(:

Hmmm, a whole list of things I need to get over with:
- X'mas shopping
- Project and assignments
- PW Meetings! Ew.
- First Ave (stock-taking & VM)
- Can't skip band anymore
- Katong performance
- Pisang gathering (long time since I seen those banana-heads!)
- Finish the stuff I started painting/colouring
- House wrapping because we're painting the house! :/
- Poldar's x'mas night!!
- BBMS outings! : D
- COUNTDOWN TO THE NEWYEAR : D anyone? lol. promise to stay sober next year :)

So much for just 2 weeks.

(BLOWS NOSE!) Booo. Horrendous feeling. Sick and the ground is wet, should I go down tonight? x.x SAVE ME. It's so cold down below. AND MCR IS HERE TODAY. DAMN IT 'CAUSE I CAN'T GO. Black parades, byebye ): Stupid tests. Stupid. Stupid. STUPID. Think I need to go mug for the 3rd paper already.

Can anyone tell me how to study for Fashion Merchandising? Cui.

3/4 love.

3/4 L O V E (:

BF is love to the pover of 10! hehe. Mugging my ass off pretty bad now. I need a break, pooo. Oh wellll. One more chapter to go(: And A&P can go kissmyarse. My report! Left with 2 more components. I was just too tired to complete it last night. Kept nodding off while typing it. Lucky I managed to finish my intro and 2 other components. Yay, hope to get it done by todayyy. I'm going to watch Heroes now. Episode 11 is done! : D YAYHEYS. I need lotsa sleeep I reckon. Pillows? ): Jiayooooou Jolene!!! The weekend weren't that bad? Eh? Ciaos!

so gross lah.

YES. I finally finished my oh-so-effing gross Comm Skills SHIT : D YESSSS!!!! Hallelujah. Who sits in a corner for weeks going through so many problems just to write a resume, a cover letter and prepare yourself for an interview?! Stupid PBL. Go to hell. Comm skills sucks!! ) : And and there is another report dued this coming week. GROSSGROSSGROSS. School's getting more disgusting each day. Reports and all. We weren't even spared for tutorials. Still have to prepare presentations. GROSSGROSSGROSS. Tomorrow is another gross day T_T Have to go down to get fabrics. Hmmm ) : Anyway, it's project fieldwork this week! No tutorials on Monday and Tuesday : D And I decided to skip lecture tomorrow. So I'm going school later to print and submit my Comm Skills shit. Yuck. DAMN GROSSED OUT LAH. ) : Sigh. Dreadddds schoooooolllll eeevvvveeerryyyydaaayy. DRAGDRAGDRAGGGG. Sigh. Forget school.

I met girlfriend today! : D Missed you sooooo bad! Wooohooo. Meet me again sooon : D Paint nails and eat toblerones again : D Arg, I'm all alone at home again. Looking forward for my brothers to book out and we'll disturb each other again : D YAY. LOL. I WANT MY NEW HANDPHONE LAH!!! I'm going to get it tomorrow! Woooohoooo. My W910i : DD Hopefully my brother can exchange the red one for the super cool copper brown and gold edition! : DDDD PLS PLS PLS. I don't wna have the same phone as JACQ! BOO. I wanted that phone first! ): HAHA Nvm, wth la, Jacq is in Taiwan now. We're having school yet she is out of Singapore. Lol. YOU OWE ME MY TAIYANG BING!!! : D Muahaha. Okayyyys. Ciaos. Hope tomorrow would be good. Rain rain go away. ( : Nice horredous scary weather today, isn't it? Today's thunderstorm scared the shit out of me. Hope it's windy and not so humid tomorrow! Nights. I seem to be blabbering a lot today. TSK.

number twohundredsixtyone.

Neglected my shit for so long. So okay, I'm back. Nothing much but I've got a hellavu shit to rant about. I swear to my mother's bolah that today's the most sickening and shittiest day ever. I had a really hardddd time travelling on the MRT. I took the wrong train, I waited for the trains which took forever, I overshot the station which I'm suppose to alight and I almost forgotten to alight when I was coming back home. My mind's such a pain today it decided to wander off and didn't return at all. ): Think I'm not going to take the train for some time. Made me sooo damn upset. And I didn't get anything from my pathetic shopping trip. ARG. My mother is CRAZY. She fed Bobby human medicine cause he had diarrhoea. Wtf la. Lucky he's alive still. Dad. YA DAD, brought him to the vet. Thank God he still responses to me and the plastic bag sound (he thinks it's food when he hears the plastic bag noises) Sigh.... Today's just not my day. I couldn't think and concentrate. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm irritated over something I can't comprehend.

Whatever. Hate today. Let's talk about yesterday. Was just looking forward for dinner, practically starve whenever I'm at work. ): Nobody accompanies me for lunch breaks. Sigh. SOOoo lonely. Nvm. Dinner was fillliingg. And after that went to play spaklers with yanie. Sadly the atmosphere wasn't there. Woonkiat, Steven and Olivia came to pick me up with my step brother-in-law's car and we went to drink kopi and cruise along the night skyline. Yay, Woonkiat drove us to so many places and seriously my brother-in-law's BMW is sooooo damn comfy. HAHA. What a great nightttt. (: I enjoyed the drive through eerie Seletar area. Misty, cool wind and oh-so-tranquil. Can't wait for the next drive around! One more week till school reopens. Pffffft. I hate this entry. It's so monotonous. TODAY JUST PASSED ME BY. "Tomorrow would be a better day." Promise.




Girl-POWER. BBMS forever! Seehua's the photographer btw. (:

And you know what, I wish I didn't exist.
Or vice-versa.
YOU didn't exist in my life.
It's can't be THAT BAD, you know.
Maybe it isn't that bad afterall.
Find my mind back, please?
I've lost it all...

(She whispered into your subconscious heart.. :"I missed you, sweets.. You hear me!")

So don't say yr gdbyes, you kw it's btr tht way..

TP can be really disturbing at times:
The notice for outstanding library charges is a new service that we have just activated due to feedback and requests for members to be alerted on overdue charges. This notice will be sent regularly on a monthly basis.Our library records show that you have total outstanding charges of $: 0.30

(.......) Lol. It's damn frustrating la. Anyway, I've been oweing them for more than a year alr? Lol and I haven't paid a single cent. Oh, correction. Is LiXian whom owe them the money! :x haha, she didn't return her books on time. That's why.

Seehua can be disturbing at times too:
Jolene says (4:53 PM):
yay by 25th i will get a new hairstyle
Jolene says (4:54 PM):
haha
Jolene says (4:54 PM):
hopefully
.fluffy - says (4:54 PM):
ooOOOooO
.fluffy - says (4:54 PM):
u gona shave ur head??
Jolene says (4:56 PM):
dumb no
.fluffy - says (4:56 PM):
hahaha
Jolene says (4:56 PM):
try shaving yr head one day b4 yr birthday
Jolene says (4:56 PM):
i'll give u money
.fluffy - says (4:56 PM):
lolx...
.fluffy - says (4:56 PM):
no way man
Jolene says (4:56 PM):
than?!
Jolene says (4:56 PM):
siao.haha
.fluffy - says (4:57 PM):
lol

HAHA. And there are still many countless times where she really disturbs me. ZZZ. I hope you are reading this. LOL. I hope you shave your head darling. (: So yes, I'm going to NOT shave my head. If I were to be skin-headed, you can see me disappear from your life. I'll extinct myself. Bwahaha. New hairstyle... Hmmm.... Had long hair all my life.. what if it was short? Uhhh..... My mother hates me with short hair. BAHHH. Maybe cut something like gf. LOL YOU DOLL(: You look so cute, meet me up soon man, I so wna see your hair. BWAHAHA. Okay, side-tracked. So yessss, I'll cut something crazy perhaps, and I'm going to trust my hair stylist for once. S: Everyone loves surprises right? (x Stay tuned..

Anyway. I've been home alone lately. Nobody's home. Eerik's in BMT. Jayjay's pathetic, under confinement. So lil sister's home alone.. HMM ): I don't wna talk to my maid either. HAHA woops. So I'm only waiting for mummy to come home every night.. Dad? Errr.. I don't really care.. S: Everyday.... just watching my holidays pass by.. Waiting for work, waiting for band and waiting for friends to ask me out X: haha. If not ya.... I'll be reading novels, talking to myself.. Coming here.. Sigh. I wna restring the guitar as soon as I get my pay.. I've chucked it aside for God knows how long.. Now I need to find it. Oh where the hell it went??? Sheeeesh. Okay, so I still do have things to do even at home. BYE(:

tell me to stop thinking, please...?


bff(:

Wounds that never really heal.

when you walked away, i counted the steps that you take..

I feel so wrong. I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. But.... Felt great after making yourself insane, spinning on things that makes you spin round and round, attempting to make you puke your dinner in the middle of the night. Ya, like Gareth wanted to puke his McSpicy out! BAHAHA. Baldwin and Gareth are the craziest and stupidest duo I've ever met in my entire life I swear! BAHHHH. They made me laugh till my tummy hurts. I found myself crying like an idiot toooo. It's just fun watching them spin round and round, can't walk straight and falling to the ground. I was seriously laughing my ass off with Olivia and Seehua. I decided to join them for a spin and I fell to the ground after 20 spins on that spin spin thingy. LOL. YAY. I FOND A NEW HOBBY. SPINNING. Sigh.. Olivia and Seehua are the best people to go to to get consoled. 'Caused they tend to be in the same frequency as me. Like STRANGELY we would be.

Tell you something, School's a whole load of BULLSHIT. I effing hate this semester. Think I'm not going to make it through anyway. My tutors like to drown me in their sarcasm. One say I cannot make it to 2.2, another shows me the 'cut my head off and die' action while taking my mr test today. Vomits. LOL. I seriously feel like poking their eyeballs. BOO. MEN. They meant no good. They just harm and hurt you. Make you break into pieces and supposingly asked to clear the mess up by yourself. DIE. ):

Hmmmm, IMH or Vivo &Wheelock Place tmr? Steamboat on wednesday? NDP on thurs?
Seriously, I feel like procastinating. ):

EVERYTHING'S A WHOLE LOAD OF BULLSHIT. The world sucks.
GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD.

drop dead.

I've got this stupid psychology test on saturday, and seriously... I'M GODDAMN FREAKING OUT. I don't know how I should study for it. 5 essay questions.. Why no MCQ. WAH LAO. I think I'm going to bang the wall or something la. Get the answers drilled into my head, no matter what it takeeees, don't want to FAIL. ): I've alr got 2 modules in jeopardy. I'm way toooo distracted now to study, so I think I'm going off after this entry, before I die on saturday. BOO, this sucks. My plans for saturdays are ruined. Suddenly got so many things going on I don't know which direction should I take. All I remember is... JAYJAY'S SAILING TO PERTH ): I wna send him off with my family though. Where on earth will he be departing at? S:

Ehhhhh, there's a lot of shit going on tmr. And all I wna do is BREAK AWAY from everything.. ): I can't be bothered to do anything and all I want to do is ahem CONQUER THE WORLD! Okay no, I really don't wish to do anything now. I just wna sit down and stare into blank space really. I'm SO damn tired. I swear I never had 2.1 coming in this manner. Heavy? More like OVERLOADED. I declare DEFEAT. (waves her white flag and drops dead.) Hmmm ): I don't get it la, why are there so many damn effing projects. NEVER ENDING. ): ONE MORE TO GO... DREADDDDDDDDSSSS x.x And and and.. My groupmates are still like having a war. Going. No GONE BERSERK. Pukes and die. Even today's MR presentation also got arguement. Lol, what do you think. Oh anyway. Presentation. LOL! I blanked out. WOH, forgot all my points. And went, OH SHIT OH SHIT (: Ha. Ha. That's it Jolene. Moving on to psycho, we traded away presentation day today! To next next thursday thank goodness, I wasn't prepared. OH wellll... Think that's all for school.

And I blanked out suddenly.

Erm, okay nvm, then I shall goo (: Seeyou lovelies. Goodbye world.
mo mo..
Please tell me I'm not lost.
Paramore, my heart.


Keeps me happy, smiley and going(:
Like sugarpills.

I can't figure it out yet just how to make it perfect for you.

"I promise to study tonight!"
OMG. I lied again. HAHAHA. Big fat liar, Jolene. I bet evil twinnie is thinking the same too. Right darling? But anyway, we made a deal to study tomorrow after tutorial. Hahaha, I really hope she puts me on a leash. I reckon I'd wander off within 15 minutes. That's what all my other friends bet, I can't sit still and study. Hahaha, I rmb Su actually typed me this message of encouragement last year while studying Biz Stats Main; "Dearest Hunny Bunny! You have made it through more than 15 mins! You're the best and good luck! You're phone rocks my stinky socks!" Something like that? Very funny. Hahaha. I really miss her a lot. :( Hmmmmm, when can we be in the same class again! Miss being w you real much. Sighhh. AHHH I NEED YOU, SU-HANNA QUEK GEOK HEE. Hee, I know you hate your chinese name, ah geok love. heee. But I hope you are really okay, you seem very upset. Cheers to my hunny bunny :) You are always loved by your hunny bunny here. They don't want you, I WANT! Remember alright. I'm feeling a lot better this days. Hmmm, yeah. People who makes me day and all. Thanks sooo much. 'Cause everyday's getting harder. Sighhhhhh, the burden over my head, HEAVY. Hey I heard this end of semester there are only 2 Main papers? LIKE OMFG! BEAMS BEAMS. But. I've got 5 papers to battle now? I'm not starting yet? Oh, bother. Whatever. Ah well, I think I shall upload some pictures and stop here.

While waiting for the maincomm for dinner after band, Yesterdayyyy:
"My lovely Huaaa(:"
"Olivia! My 2nd A.Sax Buddy, LOVELOVE! She decided to go insane with me. Heee."
"Heh, she looks really adorable here! Sweeeet."
"Call me crazy, I think Cynthia's clarinet case is so damn cute! HAHAH. BROWN AND SQUARE!"
"Olivia and my love. HAHA."
"Huaaaaaa, don't be sad! I still love you till the gazillion infinity. Wait, is there such a thing???"
"OLIVIA TAN CHENG CHUAN! Right????"
"Two silly little girls. Peeping through this hole."
"Took this in the library after I woke up. HA, ya damn retarted. I fell asleep in the library while reading a novel. Erm, prolly too tired. And guess who woke me up??? ................ SHERRY WONG KAIXIN!!!! AHHHH! Surprise, surprise! And Agnes and Sihui came!!!! I swear I haven't seen Agnes for 2 years. HAHA, OMFG, tomboyyyy! You're so pretty now! HEHE, and Sihui! you're forever so adorable. And don't forget you're pretty too kays! Hahaha. Pleasant surprise! (:"

Lastly, a song lyric!

Michael Tolcher - Bad Habits
I get all my bad habits watchin' you
It's true
Well, I wish that things were so different
Change it myself
It's what i'll do

But, I can't figure it out, yet
Just how to make it perfect for you
But, I'm closer than I was
Yesterday

Yeah, I'm closer than I was yesterday

They say that life is for learning
Well, teach to me to live
While I'm here
Messages twisted and turning
What should I give
Make it clear

'Cause I can't figure it out, yeah
I can't figure it out, yet
Just how to make it perfect for you
But, I'm closer than I was
Yesterday

Yeah, I'm closer than I was yesterday

Don't you know there's no difference
I'm not the same
I'm only here
To be with you
And now I'm closing the distance
Dropping the claim
Trading the past for something new
Something new

Why would you work without living
Spending your soul
What's it worth?
Well, I hope you make it to heaven
Waiting for life
Here on earth

'Cause I can't figure it out, yet
I can't figure it out, yet
No, I can't figure it out, yet
Just how to make it perfect for you
But, I'm closer than I was
Closer than I was
Yeah, I'm closer than I was
Yesterday
Yeah, I'm closer than I was
Yesterday

Bye and goodnight. (:

I hope you believe in Karma, 'cause the bad one is on it's way. (:

Here is gone.

Stress. Stress. STRESS.
WHY?
I've been neglecting my studies.
I'm doing very badly for all modules, I reckon.
I'm not helping myself, obviously.
It's raining projects, AGAIN.
God damn it, and the Mid-sems are here again. 2 weeks from today.
And wth. I'm still in my own world and don't even know what is going on.
Why? Time, it's passing too quickly.
I barely caught a glimpse of May and wth, today's alr the what?
22May. Thanks, huh.
Work's taking up all the spare time, I barely even have time for myself.
Talk about my studies? Forget it.
It's all about the kids, kids, kids. : (
But if I do not work, I'll be in serious trouble.
Whatever, I'm still cash-strapped.
BUT, I'M ALREADY SO TIRED.
SO LETHARGIC. And my eye bags are getting bigger and saggier every morning.
Poopy-puffy-fishy-saggy eyes.
Grumble, grumble, grumble.
For crying out loud........
HELP!!!!!!!!!!
Desprately seeking for redemption.
And a clearer mind.
It's cluttered.
Any takers?
Anyw. Darling, are you really moving on? (:
Gosh, my heart still skips a beat. .....
OH MY GOD.
Dear car, please run over me later.
Or dear stray bullet, please shoot me down.
Or dear kid, running with a scissor, I don't effing care how dangerous you are.
STAB ME.
Ok, just kidding..
I digress.

Band, school, kids = Jolene's life.
SAD.

Life's a big bad bastard, don't you agree, sweets.
What happens next....?

Gray sky morning.

Today we are a happy bunch of bananas. I really hope we were. After all the mishaps that happened, I hope that we will cling to each other even more.. We always say that we're unbreakable. Just look at us now? Nvm, I digress the unhappy stuff. I guess it's over???? Hmmmmmm.. On a happier note. Finally all of us(well not all, least there is 9 out of 11 of us) sat down on a table and ate together like we use to every pisang dinner. I enjoyed the nonsense, laughters and games we crap out lahh. Every single dinner and outing is so significant. From our first outing at Marina South till today, I remembered every single one of them. All my life, camp groups disperse every other camps, but that did not happen to pisangs. The bond is what make us so special. Disputes and fights are so unworthy of us.. I think it's really unfair to just fall apart because of this. How could we destroy what we have built?!?! Don't you pity our bond? I think it's sooooo damn unfair!! I don't want any other outsider to say we're breaking apart ever again! I pray that each and every one of you to be okay. I look forward everyday to see all the 10 bananas who gave me another life in school. Don't just kill this little motivation I have in my heart. I don't want all of us to be just friends, I want us to all be as one PISANGS! Pleaseeeee. Happier Pisangs?? Love you all, TK, Kannan, Joyce, Lou, Jo-an, Jiamin, Sam, Cai, Jon ang Long! Anyw, I wish you guys and also the other friends, all the best for the upcoming elections. (: Your sister here will support you whole-heartedly. LOVE.

Digressssss.

Still reluctant to sleep though, so let me continue with my dailies. Hmmmmmms. Friday w EVIL TWINNIE in the morn till late afternoons searching for our dumb stocks! Arab st. was quite an experience. Really a whole st. selling fabrics and magic carpets. Lol. Still there were our stuff. I like your yellow shades :D When to take my pay at the damn freaking place, Oosh with SHERRY BABE(Thanks a gazillion!!!!! What would I do w/o YOU?!?!). And they took years to process my pathetic check. I almost cried when they say I couldn't take it luh! Wah lao. Lucky the accountant offered to bank in for me. Or else I'll slam that damn freaking place to MOM. Worker abuse! :X Then back to TP w Sherry and I was LATE for band. Haissss, nt like I wanted to. Unfruitful sectionals :/ Blahhhhhhhhh, don't bother. AND DINNER. With the rain... Boooo.. Hahahahas The funniest thing that happened was on our way to dinner, walking beside an open field. I swear that was the scariest thing ever experienced. We almost got killed!!! Ahahaha, okay, not so exaggerating yet, but we saw lotsa lightning! And the thunder was booming at our ears. Fearful us, quickly made a dash for shelter. Lol. Or else we're BURNT. Bahhh. Ohhh ya, I forgot to tell you guys, that I found a bug in my fried vermicelli. Yes, A BUG. That looks like a cockroach, but it's not a cockroach, it was a bug that looks like a cockroach and they all say it wasn't a cockroach but a cockroach that looks like a beetle, bug.. But the bug really looked like a burnt cockroach that doesn't look like a beetle. Beetle are not so small and long.. dot dot dot. HEEEE. Anyw, the woman apologised and gave me a full refund. Well, that's good customer service, but I already ate half of my food that had a beetle in it!

Okay. Forget it, I'M OKAY. Maybe not. After effects of eating fried vermicelli w beetle. HAHHA.. But hey, least it's better than the cai peng store at Bedok inter. They sold me sour curry!!! And they didn't dare to try the sour curry. And they pushed the blame against each other, that they didn't cook the curry. And they only wanted to return me a dollar for a lousy plate of rice which I only ate about 2 mouthful and costing me $2.50! It's not like I'm being kian peng or what, but that isn't the right way to treat you customers. I was sooooo pissed and quite VERY reluctant to accept the dollar. And I told auntie:"Auntie.. I only took a few mouths and your curry is sour and you only want to return me $1???" She was so pissed with me, she asked me to throw that plate of rice I bought earlier on. She then slapped another bowl of rice on a new plate, and asked me to re-choose my dishes, which she happen to also slapped it on to my rice. I could spell the word 'annoyed' on her face. GOSH! HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO HER CUSTOMERS WHEN SHE IS IN THE WRONG IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!? I almost yelled at her, but gracious me(: decided to go back with my lousy plate of rice. And you know what cheeeena woman, it still SUCKS. You're lucky china women, that I didn't sue your damn fucking store! I shall call MOH, ONE DAY. Sue till all your hair and pants and money drop! :Z Hmmps. Yucky women. Don't eat there okay. It's really really bad. BLACK LISTED. >:( Hahaha, sorry side-tracked. Mmmmm, after dinner, Seehua kept wanting to drink. I think she's half-awake as well. HAHAHAS. Promise to drink w you okayy? DON'T, don't, don't... Please don't be so emo! Jol's still here! : ) Omg, I talked so much. I, really digress. Picture talking now kays? (:



The Usual Threesome Stoners after class(:
"unglamourousque."
"AHHHHH, Mommmmiee! Monsters are trying to kiss me!!"
"CHU~"
"Evil twins mugging!? No.... They're filling up survey forms! Good children!"

"Everything's so blurrry."


"The prettier photos."
"EVIL TWINNIES!"
"Nice yellllowww shadies!"

"MEEEKS. Walking down the st."
"HELLU SHERRY BABES!"
"Nice backgrnd. In a moving bus though. Bahahaha!"Life with Bobbie(Randoms, hah.)
"Shuai bah! Killer puppy eyes!!"
"Poooooofff. Lazy doggie only wants to SLEEP!"
Was reading the text and he thought it was a pillow. Hahahaha. He still looks like a little curious puppy. Like it when he is this way, so quiet and enjoyable to look at. You wouldn't want to see the other side of him! HAHA, but no doubt he looks really adorable in this picture. Awwwww(:
"ZZZZZZZ already?!?! MY TEXTBOOK, BOBBIE!"
"SCRATCHING!"Hahahaha. Woke up for a scratch! So we snapped a picture together! He just can't keep still, that's why I couldn't take a pretty picture. But here's funny shot of us! Hahahahas. Bobbie, what would we do without you! YOU NAUGHTY DOG! LOVE~
Suddenly thought of my tutorials, assignments and project. And SIGH real loud. SIGHHHHH!! Oh well, bed time? Heh. Good night all!
Wishing to wake into gray sky mornings and pouring rain.

hmmm.

Favourite line.

Pie's right. She and I think that we have nothing to look forward alr, and I feel so damn wasted everyday. Big sigh. What happens next? I told huaa how saddistic I used to be back then. Hmmmm, but I'm better this days, I swear! Hahaha. She knows. I hope you're nt affected by what I've said. Sometimes I freak myself out. I seriously think I'm that foolish as well, huh Seehua? : p

Friday, 1/2 of 2r01 stayed back to finish the colour wheel. Hahaha, major success, and I think it's real pretty(: AWW. Wna see?

Indeed... It is a colourFULL wheel. RAINBOW COLOURS! HEHE. Hope the effort doesn't go to waste! Thank you guys. You all are Y! :) AND. Thank God for the wonderful people I've meet in this class. Phewww. One year, people. And damn TP again, 'cause we're going to change classes again. Bahhhh.

Completed the whole shit around 5 plus and to BAND. As usual, I can't shut up. And to DINNER. That's what I look forward most. HEHE. I realise I'm emo all year round and I've spread my disease to most of my buddies around me. LOL, no wonder lately everyone's emo. HAHA, crap paragraph. Ignore. Anyway, tomorrow's another day w the kids( : Hmmmmmm. Today's really a good day, though I was alone. I spend today all by myself. Booo!
Tatas, lovelies.

Lastly,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOMMIE. &I LOVE YOU! (:

From your fugly&flabby daughter,

RANDOM.

Missing.

Now I know where my emoism and emotional crisis comes from. Mom. All inherited by my dearest mummy. Yup. We cry easily, though she's worse and can cry over sad korean drama shows. I don't. I cry whenever I'm angry or like really depressed. We are also both very emo at times, we have the same thoughts like when we feel that no one cares for us. Hahaha, she truely is my mother. Speaking of mother, Mother's Day is around the corner! Keep in mind(: Go make your Mummy happy!

I've been trying so hard to survive out there, slogging away the last month of my holidays. Being in an environment so unfriendly and unfamiliar is really a bitch. Like fuck the world and all the damn fucking imbeciles. Brainless mofos!! Having to put up with their shit?! WTF MAN. I'd rather kill myself! Seriously, I'll fucking smash shit on your FUCK FACE one day! Damn it! Oosh is a fucking place to work at, filled with a fucking management and fucking people! THEY CAN ALL JOLLY WELL GO FUGGGGGG THEMSELVES. Sigh... Working there is no different from being tortured. I think you've to be charismatic and have the X-factor to stand out and really save and defend yourself when yo get yourself in trouble or deep shit. Hmmm... If not you can jolly well go and die like me. Lol, just kidding. Still grateful to the colleagues who bothers to teach and care. The only precious gems of that fucking dirt trap. You imbeciles are lucky to have them! And you treat them like SLAVES! TSK! The management are seriously unworthy of. Fuck! Go jump down your fucking rooftop or bridge and just die. Get it? DIE, you fucking dickheads!

Hahahaha. I swear I haven't been so vulgar for so long, can you believe it? I even scolded CB like a gazillion times? Eee... So indecent and unlikely of me??? HEHEHEHE. But sorry, they really make me wna hurl profanities. Sigh. Anyway, enough of ranting, I'm disgusting myself. HAHA.. Whatever. Still considering whether to continue working after hearing those disturbing things the boss and sups did from Pris. /: SIGH!!! MONEY! ): ARG...! Talking about Oosh ANNOYS me. S: But I have to destress before I slit my wrists. LOL. Nonsense. Nonsense. Nonsense. I think that's about it, luh. Have got to go! Ohhh it's going to be a longgg day tom. Kumon, lunch, (concert?), Corvus' dinner and PISANGS' CHALET! (: Sighhh.. I'm tired..... And meaningless. Disappearing for a long while.

Sigh. Rain.. And again. How disturbing.
Everyday's like every other days, I'm fine without you.
The one I loved the most? Hmmm..
I'm holding on by letting go of you.

It's My March<3

HI. It's March alr! Happy holidays my friends! :) Design peeps, better work hard for the projects and tests. Bwahahaha. Don't fret, holidays are around the corner for you peeps toooo. :) Aiyeee, can you believe it, it's alr the 3rd month of 2007?? 3rd. Why time passes so fast, as usual. Hope the O Levellers are happy w their postings. And if you're appealing all the best too!

(Chomping a sweet sweet Fuji pink-reddish apple at this hour. ^^)

Recently have been drowning in excessive rock, indulging into the constant drummings and strummings. It's awesome to sing along to it when you're so totally feeling for the song. You know the passion for rock! I loveeeeeee that feeling deeeeeeep down inside so very much, makes you feel a lot better when you're moodless or down. Music especially rock (except heavymetal) have always been there for me. ALWAYS(: And I'm think turning deaf too. My Ipods' volume is tuned up to 90% I get stares on the buses, by elders especially for blaring it tooo loud. You can't blame me for being so deaf. Watch out, I M I G H T.. gorge your eyeballs out. ^^ Might... 'Cause it bothers me. Leave me alone you faggots!!!! EfFfFfFFF(:(:(:(:

Today's a happy day. It was packed w stuff, band, pool and dinner w me folks. I found a new past-time, pool-ing! I enjoy playing pool, especially w the band friends. So I think every Wednesdays after band would be past-time activies :) Thimk it might be bowling next Wednesday. Woopie! Thank you mommy for feeding your babies with YB&J'S ICECREAMY! *YAYNESS!(:(:(:* Gooeychocolateyfudgemeltinginyourmouth. Hungry mommy!!! (BEGS FOR MORE!!!) Je aimes chocolats!!!!

I have been contemplating really hard lately. Both past and present. It's amazing how much time I can find to think about stuff that really bothers me. And how much of these precious time can be spent on something more meaningful. It's strange, I'm either too buzy or too free, never somewhere in the middle.. How time fools us sometimes.
(Ponders. How can anyone live w the troubles everyday, having to smile like everything's okay when it's not? How long can you live in trouble? They said forever.. How long can we actually hold on..? As always forever.. Why hold on even though you know it's never....? )

Ignore. Told yarr, I'm contemplating life.
Peekture talk.

BEFOREMARCHHOLS):
"Chilling out w my poopies!"
"Mugging scene One???!: At TK's place during CNY! Study week behhhh."
"Mugging scene Two: Strawberry Nanny's love on my exbook @ CP lib."

"Mugging scene Threes: at the airport w k, din and minxing<3!"
"Mugging scene Four: mother's bedsheet are cute! cherrylove!"
"Cam whore session! We never fail to love~ SEE HER?"

"This was seriously a mugging scene: classic no.5, them not studying! Hahaha, TP lib before stats paper!"

AFTEREXAMS(((x
"Took neos w the class girls!"
"Nad, Hanna-Su &Jol."
"JUMBO+BUMBO!"
"You're my hunny bun sugar plum, pumpiyumpiyumkin!"
"So, wna pick, dig and lick?"
"Your's truely.."

I hope you are really okay....
butwhydoievenbother?
whenallicoulddoissittingalonewatchingoutforyou..
toletyoupouryourheartout, likeyoualwayswantedtotellyoueverythingit'sokay...
reallyalliwantisyouyobefine..